Monday, November 28, 2011

Do ticking clocks annoy anyone else as much as they do me?

Boredom (pics)

Boredom creates strange behaviors.

Exhibit A: 

Gobble Gobble (blog) (pics)

I'm finally home after spending several days visiting family in California for Thanksgiving. Emphasis on “finally” back home... missed my bed and my kitties! 

This Thanksgiving was probably one of the most interesting holidays I've ever had. It started off with a crazy arrival into L.A. where my mother spent 2 hours driving 2 miles trying to snatch me from United arrivals. Apparently, a wee bit of rain caused the tunnels and roads coming into LAX to flood. Nightmare! After much hoopla and my mother practically cursing out a tailgating bus driver as I tried to throw suitcase into trunk... we finally drove out of that mess. Oh yea, in my haste, I practically fell down an escalator as my luggage proceeded to tumble over. Good times! Haha.

The next day was much easier. I went pottery painting with my mother and an old friend, who I hadn't seen in nearly 8 years. I'm pretty damn proud of myself. I haven't painted in years, and yet I still remember how, and executed it quite well. I made a spoon rest, which looks pretty chalky in the photo, but once it's put into the kiln it will be a vibrant red. Will tweet a picture when it arrives to me in the mail. (twitter.com/femmeeden)

While in California, I also set up a photo shoot with a rather talented classic pin up photographer. OMG. Can't. Wait. To. Share... the photos he has given me thus far are so sexy... they make me squeal with excitement.

After the shoot I met up with my ex-fiance. I was engaged when I was 18. Thank goodness I didn't get married... my life would be extremely different, and not in a good way. What was most interesting to me was the instantaneous closeness and honesty we exhibited when we started talking aloud. We haven't been talking through the years since we broke up. It was like no time had passed, and our conversations were as intimate as ever. After having been together 2 years, we were quite close. That closeness somehow still remains between us, and it was interesting falling back into the habit.

Thanksgiving day itself was a mess. There was a lot of cooking, were hugs, arguments, naps, mango champagne, and video games. All in all, a success as far as I'm concerned! Hoping you also had a great holiday, and enjoyed time with family... don't ever take them for granted. Regrets are hard to rectify. Or so I've been told... ;)

 

 

Gobble Gobble (blog) (pics)

I'm finally home after spending several days visiting family in California for Thanksgiving. Emphasis on “finally” back home... missed my bed and my kitties! 

This Thanksgiving was probably one of the most interesting holidays I've ever had. It started off with a crazy arrival into L.A. where my mother spent 2 hours driving 2 miles trying to snatch me from United arrivals. Apparently, a wee bit of rain caused the tunnels and roads coming into LAX to flood. Nightmare! After much hoopla and my mother practically cursing out a tailgating bus driver as I tried to throw suitcase into trunk... we finally drove out of that mess. Oh yea, in my haste, I practically fell down an escalator as my luggage proceeded to tumble over. Good times! Haha.

The next day was much easier. I went pottery painting with my mother and an old friend, who I hadn't seen in nearly 8 years. I'm pretty damn proud of myself. I haven't painted in years, and yet I still remember how, and executed it quite well. I made a spoon rest, which looks pretty chalky in the photo, but once it's put into the kiln it will be a vibrant red. Will tweet a picture when it arrives to me in the mail. (twitter.com/femmeeden)

While in California, I also set up a photo shoot with a rather talented classic pin up photographer. OMG. Can't. Wait. To. Share... the photos he has given me thus far are so sexy... they make me squeal with excitement.

After the shoot I met up with my ex-fiance. I was engaged when I was 18. Thank goodness I didn't get married... my life would be extremely different, and not in a good way. What was most interesting to me was the instantaneous closeness and honesty we exhibited when we started talking aloud. We haven't been talking through the years since we broke up. It was like no time had passed, and our conversations were as intimate as ever. After having been together 2 years, we were quite close. That closeness somehow still remains between us, and it was interesting falling back into the habit.

Thanksgiving day itself was a mess. There was a lot of cooking, were hugs, arguments, naps, mango champagne, and video games. All in all, a success as far as I'm concerned! Hoping you also had a great holiday, and enjoyed time with family... don't ever take them for granted. Regrets are hard to rectify. Or so I've been told... ;)

 

 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Some literature this fine Turkey day. Feed your mind.

Why should I blame her that she filled my days 

With misery, or that she would of late

Have taught to ignorant men most violent ways,

Or hurled the little streets upon the great,

Had they but courage equal to desire?

What could have made her peaceful with a mind

That nobleness made simple as a fire,

With beauty like a tightened bow, a kind

That is not natural in an age like this,

Being high and solitary and most stern?

Why, what could she have done, being what she is?

Was there another Troy for her to burn?

-No Second Troy, William Butler Yeats

 

Traveling home tomorrow on Black Friday. Not my smartest move. Hopefully everyone will be shopping and not clogging up the airport. Long waits are the pits! :)

Gobble Gobble? Something to keep you awake this Thanksgiving. #ThongThursday

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Monday, November 21, 2011

I'm going (going) back (back) to Cali (Cali).

So, a little over a week later I've taken the 6 hour flight BACK to California. Coast to coast to coast to coast. Whew. I'm becoming accustomed to being in the air. "Yes, please... I would love a ginger ale." I'm becoming a pro at flight. Even making the most of my time with self shot photo and video sets in the on board restroom, hehe. THAT is fun and highly recommended as a way to pass the time... if only I had someone to share that time with me. Hint hint.

 

It's back to southern California for Turkey and family. Less of a work trip and more of a vacation... if family time can be considered vacation. Either way, I'm excited to relax a bit and possibly even have a spa day with Mommy. :) I do have one responsibility while I'm there. One of those rare “fun” responsibilities. I have to (get to) drive 2 hours one afternoon for a photo shoot near the coast. The photographer is master pin-up photographer, and by pin-up I mean old school. Think modern 50's pin-up. Extremely excited about this, because I'm such a fangirl, even if the style has become cliché. Besides, I've got the perfect outfits to rock this shoot. Bring it on.

We and our fantasies are the fruit of evolution, and we are waiting to be known. -Natalie Angier (photo)

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Oh, how I've missed thee Jamba Juice. Would move coasts for this cup'o'goodness everyday. Praise be to Jamba!

Visiting family. Always interesting finding old relics. Like this horrible piece of pottery I made at 5 yrs. #fail

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Friday, November 18, 2011

Some literature for the Neanderthals this #FriskyFriday with added photo to keep the trouser snakes happy.

As she walked towards me from the darkness of the garden into the light of the door, I saw for the first time the most beautiful woman on earth. A startling white face, burning dark eyes, a face so alive I felt it would consume itself before my eyes. Years ago I tried to imagine true beauty I created in my mind an image of just such a woman. I had never seen her until last night. Yet I knew long ago the phosphorescent color of her skin, her huntress profile, the evenness of her teeth. She is bizarre, fantastic, nervous, like someone in a high fever. Her beauty drowned me. As I sat before her, I felt I would do anything she asked of me. She was color and brilliance and strangeness. By the end of the evening I had extricated myself from her power. She killed my admiration by her talk. Her talk. The enormous ego, false, weak, posturing. She lacks the courage of her personality, which is sensual, heavy with experience. Her role alone preoccupies her. She invents dramas in which she always stars. I am sure she creates genuine dramas, genuine chaos and whirlpools of feelings, but I feel that her share in it is a pose. That night, in spite of my response to her, she sought to be whatever she felt I wanted her to be. She is an actress every moment. I cannot grasp the core of her.

 

I wanted to run out and kiss her fantastic beauty and say: 'You have killed my sincerity too. I will never know again who I am, what I am, what I love, what I want. Your beauty has drowned me, the core of me. You carry away with you a part of me reflected in you. When your beauty struck me, it dissolved me. Deep down, I am not different from you. I dreamed you, I wished for your existence. I see in you that part of me which is you. I feel compassion for your childlike pride, for your trembling unsureness, your dramatization of events, your enhancing of the loves given to you. I surrender my sincerity because if I love you it means we share the same fantasies, the same madnesses.

 

Anais Nin

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Friday, November 11, 2011

I say you the bestest. Lean in for a big kiss. Put his favorite perfume on.

 

Swinging in the backyard
Pull up in your fast car
Whistling my name

Open up a beer
And you say get over here
And play a video game

I'm in his favorite sun dress
Watching me get undressed
Take that body downtown

I say you the bestest
Lean in for a big kiss
Put his favorite perfume on

Go play a video game

It's you, it's you, it's all for you
Everything I do
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you want to do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two
Only worth living if somebody is loving you
Baby now you do

Singing in the old bars
Swinging with the old stars
Living for the fame

Kissing in the blue dark
Playing pool and wild darts
Video games

He holds me in his big arms
Drunk and I am seeing stars
This is all I think of

Watching all our friends fall
In and out of Old Paul's
This is my idea of fun
Playing video games

Let's hope so.

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Recent Interview I did for FIXE magazine. Read all about it! (&pics!) http://www.fixemagazine.com/post.php?postid=2336

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Does the Travelocity gnome annoy the hell out of anyone else?

Nude #stockings are my new favorite thing. Feels so damn #sexy. #legs #feet #hot #brunette (pic)

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Mac Baby. (blog)

Two weeks ago I received one of the more exciting packages I've ever had arrive at my doorstep. A Macbook Pro. Fifteen incher. She's a beaut! I feel like my life has changed immensely, especially considering that I spend 50% of my waking day on a computer. This was looong overdue. 

 

I've been trucking along on a $400 refurbished Acer laptop from Tiger Direct for the last 18 months. It did what I needed it to, it was rather zippy luckily... but the main problem is that it could not handle graphics. I mean... when I tried to play a 1080p movie it would skip like crazy or I'd have to force quit VLC. As you can imagine, being a camgirl this is a rather big problem. I couldn't even install the latest Logitech software for my HD cam, and I could not record video larger than 800x600px or it would start to skip frames. Alas! I was doomed... until I squealed like a little girl when “the box” arrived at my doorstep.

 

I made sure that my new love child would be fast enough and powerful enough to handle graphics and does she! AMD Radeon HD 6490M 256 MB, baby! Videos, recorded or played, have never looked better. And overall... feels like life is a little more effortless now. :)

 

Monday, November 7, 2011

California Rush (blog)

Hello gents, and hopefully a few ladies. :)

 

This week I'm in lovely (but bankrupt, boooo) California. I'll be in the golden state doing photo shoots, video shoots, and I'll be making an appearance at a convention where I'll be slinging some photography software. Yeehaw! I'm pretty excited since I'm already suffering withdrawals from the Seattle shoot I participated in just a few weeks ago (see post http://femmeeden.posterous.com/ta-aplenty). Unfortunately I won't be surrounded by the beautiful solo girls, but apparently California has some pretty hot gals, right? I'll have to find me a few. ;)

 

Less than a week after I return home to the east coast, I'll be flying back to California to visit family for Thanksgiving.  My parents just moved back to the town where I graduated high school... going to see some people I haven't seen in over 7 years. This is going to be an interesting one! Nostalgic and possibly explosive, haha. Who knows?! I'll make sure to keep the updates coming here and my blog at femmeeden.com.

 

Hanging out in Cali this week. I won't be around on cam until I've returned, FYI. Too much to do!

Good morning California!

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